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humanity is a weird thing, but i suppose the majority of life forms on earth more or less act the same way. we evolved from monkeys, became bipedal, figured out how to fix pointy rocks on sticks and murder things bigger than us to provide for our own tribes. over time we advanced in our methods while retaining the same end goals. to eat, to love, to reproduce, and to advance, typicaly at all costs. while we surley blame ourselves for our own hereditary shortcomings, i feel we justify exhaustion and procreastination with the stunning mental mechanics of denial. honestly, its a real treat. dont feel like doing something yet? just lie to yourself and reinforce the idea that everything will not only be fine, but better by your choice of delay!

its something to think about though. everything is something to think about, you cannot stop thinking unless you are dead, and i think the same goes for humans and nature. it is in our brain and our logic to perpetualy advance technilogicaly and physicaly. sometimes there are motivations for our actions, sometimes those motivations are subdued. the american goverment balloned their budgets just to send a man to the moon because their ideologicaly opposed enemy suffocated a dog in orbit and flug the first man into space in nothing short of a catapult.

and with all that money spent, they landed a man on the moon and brought him back again. after that, nothing. what was the USSR going to do? the west was chocking them both economicaly and militarilty in the military dick-measuring contest alone! they couldnt one-up the USA and therefore NASA's budgets dropped sharply and that fad was history, for the most part. so as much as motivation comes from human ingenuity and passion, hatred of different ways drives us high, praticaly out of spite.

motivation feels a bit paradoxial also. if something existed with the natural intent to do everything possible, then being productive would slowly chip away at their self-justified meaning, and when they learn to do things faster and more efficently, the only thing stopping them from nulling their own logical purpose is universal entropy snuffing them out before they can achive their rapidly dissapating goals.

logcialy it is impossible to do everything if you go by the literal defenition, mainly because it is incomprehensible to achive all and also imposbbile when goals contradict themselves and others in large numbers.

So i suppose humanity, much like all other life we know of, finds justifcation out of sustaining their primal and self-reighcous goals of exponentialy expanding and then eventualy collapsing under its own weight. look at our history, it's all been about conquers and conqest, to push ones own culture and perspective above all when none is subjectivly correct. everything is relative and as long as we sit on our little rock in space massacring each other due to our caveman brains then we are never going to get anywhere. but then again i suppose nothing would find us given how we havent detected any life so far and any aliens that saw us today would find our own ruins or nothing at all by time they reach us, that is if we are even worth their time.

it feels like humanity's nature is one of self-destruction, and since everyone is always on a different page and thinks with their emotions, we will never get along outside of extracting primal instictcs from the brain that dont subtract from our survival capabilities. im getting far ahead of myself there, but things have changed so much in just 30 or so years. 30 years ago you didnt have several large internet-spanning monopolies harvesting your personal information and giving it off to the highest bidder soaring to unpresidented profits in the trillions in exchange for free online services.

Personal computers have only been mainstream for the past 20 or 25 so years and look how far they have come. the future looks bleak but the neon lights are pretty.

Reminds me, maybe i should talk about loose future predictions that will not remotley be correct.

07/11/2024

Theo